For a second I thought it was whole For a second I thought I could rid Myself of the gaping hole You left But in reality There’s no replacing you Your memory will be here And I must get used to Living with ghosts The ghosts that eat My soul The ghosts that will not Go away The ghosts that …

That’s the thing about love.   You won’t see it coming.   Someday it will just be gone.   And in it’s wake After you’re done Drowning In the whitewash of what was You will be born  Anew Free to pursue other peaks Allowed to build new castles And the choice Will be yours And yours Alone

My head fades into oblivions and I slowly blend into the colors of perception. Away from the tightness in my shoulders. Away from the stinging anvil in my chest. Away from my shaking hands. Away from everything.

In the silence of the night, I find the strength to let it go. The battles fought, the endless plight, A heart once fierce, now softens slow. My daughters, dears, may you forgive, The choices made in troubled times. In letting go, we start to live, And seek forgiveness in our rhymes. To all I’ve hurt along the way, I …

What do I want? Me? Happiness To be understood As a person Who feels Intensely I yearn for Understanding But most I yearn for Forgiveness For ending up Like this

Only some can see The invisible cuts The ones  that never heal The ones  that never fit The holder Incapable of understanding How they got there But understood So deeply By those Who have bled

Life at 5 Too young To consent Too old, in spirit To be recognized Too angry To be good Too loud To be heard Too innocent To be protected Too much of a failure To matter When you become The shield At 5 You are The shield For life.

There’s light It isn’t real It’s just a reminder That you cannot Achieve What you want That what you feel Isn’t real You’re no good

The painful peck A goodnight kiss The closest I get To feel anything And even in that You detest me

It burns So deeply In my arms Feeling you Swipe away My feeble  Attempts  At being  Enough For You